oh…

First I screw up

Second you disappear from the face of earth

this is very painful for me right now

I am really sorry

I 

I am very very sorry

OH WOW 

no wonder you do feel bad with yourself

this

fucking

people

ahg

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stop doing that to yourself

no 

don’t ask who i love the most

that’s not something i can measure

and you thinking it is makes me feel uneasy

i love them both in different ways

you can’t ask me if i like jamie more or if i will dump one of the for the other

please stop

nworufnwmkefnewnof

i can’t even get the courage to talk to them

OK NOW I UNDERSTAND

i hate this

i hate my life

i hate that im such a failure in the world

god